That’s in bestsellers, right next to Twilight.

‘Whatever happened to chivalry? Does it only exist in 80’s movies? I want John Cusack holding a boombox outside my window. I wanna ride off on a lawnmower with Patrick Dempsey. I want Jake from Sixteen Candles waiting outside the church for me. I want Judd Nelson thrusting his fist into the air because he knows he got me. Just once I want my life to be like an 80’s movie, preferably one with a really awesome musical number for no apparent reason. But no, no, John Hughes did not direct my life.’

That is all I have to say. Easy A (Gluck, 2010) strikes again haha. Not really, but (and I apologise that I keep going on about it but I love it so much) as you know the flame of the eighties movie is still very much glowing in my life, especially since I turned 21! Yeaaaaah, that happened, happy birthday to me I guess? I’m also currently supposed to be getting ready to go out for the night but i’ve decided to write my post on here while i’m still here and functioning, because as you know from my last post, I don’t really work that well when I get home from nights out.

So I feel like this week has been a difficult one, just with everything being overwhelming and intense. And I just need some time to adjust to everything, like this is how stressful things will be until i graduate now. In the midst of missed classes (that I didn’t know I had been entered for) to actually being drunk for the first time and kissing a complete stranger (also not my proudest moment), I just need to take a breather from this whirlwind that happens to be taking over right now. If you are in a whirlwind, then take a breath because you’re going to burn out if you don’t.

I’m reading a book at the moment called ‘How to be mindful’ and paired with my ‘Calm’ book it helps with my anxiety disorder and day to day life in general. I read something in it today that touched on exactly what i’ve been trying to say. It reads:

‘Open your heart and soul to forgiveness, both for yourself and others. Holding on to resentment or anger only fuels other negative emotions. Be open to healing and love.’

I don’t know about anyone else but I needed to hear that today, and this week in general. I’d like to think the human race is good at forgiveness and love, but I know people forget sometimes. So let me remind you of this, forgive yourself for that thing that happened, or that situation you found yourself in the other day. Because it’s over now, and you dealt with it then so there’s no need to fall back into the past just to feel that pain, anger or resentment all over again. We should learn to cross bridges when we come to them, to not care about what other people think of us, and to cut ourselves some slack every now and then. We aren’t perfect, but that’s the fun of it. If everyone was the same then the world would be a much less interesting place to be. Learn daily, live fully and love wholly.

No, my life is not directed by John Hughes, (you all knew this was coming so don’t roll your eyes!) and there is no knight in shining armour standing outside my door to save me from my troubles. But you know, that’s okay, because essentially I am The Breakfast Club, I am Pretty in Pink, I am Sixteen Candles and I am The Lost Boys. I am whoever I want to be, you are entitled to be who you want to be, but just be a good one. Be happy, and kind and loving to the world, because that’s what we deserve to have from one another. So have that epic soundtrack ready for the best movie you’re about to see. Yours.

Live Long and Prosper.

Home Girl, interrupted.

May I admire you again today?

(This was originally a post from a couple months back, apparently if you edit things they change their order.)


“This is a really volcanic ensemble you’re wearing, it’s really marvellous!”

A volcanic ensemble would be a kinder phrase to describe things right now, as in all honesty admiring from afar is hard work. Duckie has is right with constant persistence but the situation i’m in isn’t taking after Pretty In Pink (Hughes, 1986) unfortunately.

This is only going to be a short post because i’ve been at work today and my head feels like it’s going to fall off. But in my own saga,  The fawning continues! Now if you’ve never done that you’re lying. It’s a definite thing, thinking about potential situations with someone you’re crushing on is your brain’s way of filling you with false hope.

I’ve decided that i’m just going to marry John Stamos really, because he is quite glorious. But seriously, if he finds his own equivalent to the lovely Andie, then… I will just deal with it. I’m the kind of girl that’ll catch herself thinking in the moment about what could be and pin her hopes on it. Lesson to self: Don’t pin everything on one hope.

Sitting here watching 80’s teen films again isn’t really helping, because I still have no one in my back garden with a boombox trying to serenade me. 

UGH WHY IS THERE NO INSTRUCTION MANUAL FOR THIS?!

Hope you’re all well. Live long and prosper,

Home Girl, interrupted.

Everything you love is right here.

“Childhood is what you spend the rest of your life trying to overcome.”

So the day I was waiting for finally came, today i moved out of my home. The only home i’ve known for twenty years, and it ended with some tears, but at the same time it started something crazy and new. And i’m actually quite excited.

I don’t think I know a film that relates to this situation for everyone, but in my case i know i thought about Hope Floats (Whitaker, 1998) when i was thinking about which film i could relate to this. I watched this film about a woman with the worst luck trying to make a new life for her and her daughter, whilst i was sat with my mother. It’s always scary doing new things, for me this whole move is something new and unexpected, and i’d be lying if i said i wasn’t scared. But everything you love is right here.

I understand that moving away from what you know is difficult, but you never get anything out of just staying where you are. And whatever causes you to move, whatever the reason is, just take it as a good blessing to make a new start. What i take from this film is the will to carry on. The way the characters in this film are troubled with new challenges and forced to move from place to place, yet they manage to triumph every time. I triumphed in that same way today, and let me tell you, it feels good.

My biggest fear of moving was not being there for my brother, my sister or my mum, as you can probably tell i’m not a fan of change. But moving in with friends and seeing the support i actually got from my mum and my siblings makes me so much happier. This is because they knew change was coming, so they embraced it, which in turn helped me to embrace it too. I think that being a part of something bigger and knowing you’re not alone in these important times is a really big help.

So if you feel like you are alone when you’re trying to make choices or make plans, just know that everything you’ve ever wanted is on the other side of fear. If it doesn’t scare you, you don’t care enough, it’s as easy as that. I hope you find something scary enough to care about it, and to know that you’re not alone and you don’t have to do it on your own. I for one will always be right here, and that’s one person on your side. 🙂 Time to go out and change your world, and have fun embracing change!

Live Long and Prosper.

Home Girl, interrupted.

We’re simply meant to be.

“Say it once, say it twice, take a chance and roll the dice. Ride with the moon in the dead of night.'”

As I sit here and watch The Nightmare Before Christmas (Selick, 1993) I think of how much creativity and artwork must have gone into this beautiful film. It’s a Tim Burton designed creation, and in no means is it any less than any other Burton designed film. The strangely obscure masterpiece is one that is filled with love and music, and without being fooled by the title, and by me watching it in summer, it really is a lovely Halloween/Christmas film that warms the soul.

This film is so poetic in how it tells the epic love story of Jack and Sally, and it makes me want to be a part of the story as much as i can. Truth is, we are part of this story, because for some of us, it’s Halloween everyday isn’t it? The truth is, Jack is taking a risk in claiming Christmas but he’s doing it because it feels right, and that’s all you can do in this life, take risks because you feel like it’s the right thing to do. If you make a mistake then pick yourself up and dust yourself off, buttercup. You will be fine.

BUT ENOUGH OF THIS EMOTION, I must bid thee farewell, as my movie awaits. And for all the people that are reading this, including you honey, always trust yourself to do the right thing, because no matter what, you will be okay. I promise.

Live long and prosper.

Home Girl, interrupted.

Have Mercy.

“Whatever happened to predictability?” 

So as you are all aware, I have an unexplainable love for John Stamos that is ever present in my day to day life. I thought it was about time that I shared with the all mighty blogosphere just where this obsession started. Full House (1987-1995, ABC) really is in a league of its own when it comes to American TV sitcoms. It’s cheesy in all the right places but it has the jokes the parents will like too, making sure that it appeals to every generation of audience. It is the perfect example of TV made for the masses because there’s something in it for everyone.

It tells the touching story of a recently widowed single father, who is joined by his brother in law and his best friend when they move in to help him raise his three young daughters. Over eight seasons the show sees every character return each time and the family evolves through a roller coaster of events and emotions. With a barrel of laughs in every episode this show has become my all time favourite past time and as a result I have had many sessions of binge watching the madness.

Without spoiling it too much, because I do want you all to watch it if you haven’t already, i’ll just say that it really does hit home in terms of reminding me of how i grew up and some of the things me and my siblings got up to. It reminds me that family is the most important thing in life, whether that family is blood or not. Honestly, you will enjoy it from the laughter to the tears and all the kids, parents and dogs.

In my own saga, I have a little update for you all. I have a date next week! Not with the guy I was fawning over, because that would be easy, and it wouldn’t be called a crush now would it? So I have a date, with someone nice who i’ve been talking to for a while. I also go on holiday next week so that’ll be awesome. And then when i come back, i move out of home into central city, (flash reference) haha. So everything’s moving and changing, and i can’t wait. This summer is going to be amazing. Hope you all enjoy it too!

Live long and prosper,

Home Girl, interrupted.

Avengers Assemble

“I still believe in heroes.”

I realise that i’ve been away a while, and it’s just because i’ve been dealing with my own stuff. But hopefully now everything is back on track and heading onwards and upwards. Generally, I like to use the Marvel Universe to describe the relationships I have with other people because of the different features that every character has, and every character, well almost every character, within the Marvel universe mirrors one of my friends.

The thing with The Avengers (Whedon, 2012), is that the team as one works as an ultimate, but it’s made by little pockets of people who are completely different. My friends are like the Avengers in the sense that we all make up ‘the crew’ but that’s not to say we have a sense of community one thousand percent of the time. We have disputes and arguments just like any group of people, but we know that if we fight it means we care. You don’t fight for something you don’t care about.

Something happened last week with a friend that scared me and pushed my anxiety over the edge. It reminded me that we have different opinions on things and that we have to agree to disagree. It was over something we had different views on, and the whole thing got heated and out of hand. This resulted in me having a panic attack and I couldn’t catch my breath. I was crying and crying, and there was just not enough air. This is not the point of this post.

My friend reminds me of Tony Stark because he is a cheeky shit, and he winds me up so much all the time. But without Tony Stark, there would be no Iron Man, and a world without Iron Man isn’t a pretty one. As much as we temporarily fall out and we say things we don’t mean, he really is a hero. He’s my hero for sure, because he’s my best friend/brother from another mother, who has picked me up every time I fall.

My other friends are all their own heroes, and they’re all mine too. My friends are incredible and they inspire me to be the best version of myself every single day. The groups of people we become part of are full of Hulks, Captain Americas, Hawkeyes, Iron Men and Black Widows, but the key is to embrace it, and work together. We all have different views on things but that’s what makes us stronger as a group and we need that to be open and well rounded people.

I really wanted to write this to show appreciation for my friends, and remind people that they should too. Even though we argued, we came through and rose up stronger from it and honestly I don’t know what I would do without these people in my life.

Always tell your Avengers how much they mean to you, because you never know when you’re next going to be in battle.

Live long and prosper,

Home Girl, interrupted.

Okay.

 

*Warning: This post does have spoilers about the movie and the book*

‘That’s a thing about pain. It demands to be felt.’

There’s not enough I can say about The Fault in our Stars (Boone, 2014) that would give it the justice it deserves. This one was always going to be a hard one to write, but I decided it wasn’t worth avoiding anymore.

This film, (and the book), tell a story that isn’t just unique to one person, and it is done beautifully. One thing is for sure, Cancer sucks. What people often forget is that just because someone has an illness, terminal or otherwise, doesn’t mean they’re any different to how they were. As my aunt always told me, ‘They just get tired quicker, that’s all.’ In terms of character deaths, there is no other that is ever going to be as heart wrenching to any John Green fan as that of Augustus Waters. The pain I felt watching his health get worse and worse was truly unreasonable. Unreasonable because how invested must one become in the life of a fictional character, to mourn their death as if it were a real person?

But that is why my dear friends, this book is so genius. Augustus Waters was real. He exists within you and I, and within the lady on the bus, or the man at the grocery store. If we do not aspire to do greatly or be remembered in our lives, then what are we really living for? His inability to be mundane is what the human race strives for, and unfortunately along with many other terminal and non terminal illnesses, our own bodies and minds try and tear us apart sometimes. As more and more people are being diagnosed with cancer and other illnesses everyday, we are also closer to finding a cure each day, and that is an achievement in itself.

For those of you who are going through things in your life, and everyone is going through something, whether it be big or small, you are not a burden. Always be kind to one another, as you don’t know what is hidden behind a smile. If no one has reminded you today, you are important, and I care about you. Too many people go the length of their lives never knowing how much they are worth because no one ever took the time to tell them. You are worth more than the sun and the sky and the stars above, and I hope you always remember that. You are not a grenade.

You don’t need to push yourself away because you think you’re hurting people, or for their protection. As Augustus Waters would say, pain demands to be felt. Feel it, embrace it, and let others help you ease it.

Live long and prosper,

Home Girl, interrupted.