‘Whatever happened to chivalry? Does it only exist in 80’s movies? I want John Cusack holding a boombox outside my window. I wanna ride off on a lawnmower with Patrick Dempsey. I want Jake from Sixteen Candles waiting outside the church for me. I want Judd Nelson thrusting his fist into the air because he knows he got me. Just once I want my life to be like an 80’s movie, preferably one with a really awesome musical number for no apparent reason. But no, no, John Hughes did not direct my life.’
That is all I have to say. Easy A (Gluck, 2010) strikes again haha. Not really, but (and I apologise that I keep going on about it but I love it so much) as you know the flame of the eighties movie is still very much glowing in my life, especially since I turned 21! Yeaaaaah, that happened, happy birthday to me I guess? I’m also currently supposed to be getting ready to go out for the night but i’ve decided to write my post on here while i’m still here and functioning, because as you know from my last post, I don’t really work that well when I get home from nights out.
So I feel like this week has been a difficult one, just with everything being overwhelming and intense. And I just need some time to adjust to everything, like this is how stressful things will be until i graduate now. In the midst of missed classes (that I didn’t know I had been entered for) to actually being drunk for the first time and kissing a complete stranger (also not my proudest moment), I just need to take a breather from this whirlwind that happens to be taking over right now. If you are in a whirlwind, then take a breath because you’re going to burn out if you don’t.
I’m reading a book at the moment called ‘How to be mindful’ and paired with my ‘Calm’ book it helps with my anxiety disorder and day to day life in general. I read something in it today that touched on exactly what i’ve been trying to say. It reads:
‘Open your heart and soul to forgiveness, both for yourself and others. Holding on to resentment or anger only fuels other negative emotions. Be open to healing and love.’
I don’t know about anyone else but I needed to hear that today, and this week in general. I’d like to think the human race is good at forgiveness and love, but I know people forget sometimes. So let me remind you of this, forgive yourself for that thing that happened, or that situation you found yourself in the other day. Because it’s over now, and you dealt with it then so there’s no need to fall back into the past just to feel that pain, anger or resentment all over again. We should learn to cross bridges when we come to them, to not care about what other people think of us, and to cut ourselves some slack every now and then. We aren’t perfect, but that’s the fun of it. If everyone was the same then the world would be a much less interesting place to be. Learn daily, live fully and love wholly.
No, my life is not directed by John Hughes, (you all knew this was coming so don’t roll your eyes!) and there is no knight in shining armour standing outside my door to save me from my troubles. But you know, that’s okay, because essentially I am The Breakfast Club, I am Pretty in Pink, I am Sixteen Candles and I am The Lost Boys. I am whoever I want to be, you are entitled to be who you want to be, but just be a good one. Be happy, and kind and loving to the world, because that’s what we deserve to have from one another. So have that epic soundtrack ready for the best movie you’re about to see. Yours.
Live Long and Prosper.
Home Girl, interrupted.